Extract

A discussion

(One of many discussions on how new literacies practices and events enable the location and exploration of endarkened feminist epistemologies and ontologies that taught me all about terror in love)

The worst thing about [terror]…is that while you feel hurt and angry and all the rest of it, it feeds your self-doubt. You start thinking…perhaps I am not good enough.

(Nina Simone, The High Priestess of Soul, artist, activist, feminist extraordinaire, one that I perceive as a student of Supreme Love.

[Available: http://tinyurl.com/mr554sj])

Asher was not beaten or raped (by Him) or overtly spoken to with contempt. She was cheated on, lied to, and quietly and consistently humiliated in the space of a significant romantic relationship (Maven experienced a similar case). These terrors sparked deep confusion for Asher because of the irony of their context (they happened inside a deep love). This irony resulted in a type of dis-ease and a slow erosion of her sense of self-trust and confidence. This erosion triggered the basis of her self (to inquire, to dig, to seek, to conclude succinctly and cleanly). This compelled Asher’s questioning and made her care. In Maven’s case, such erosions resulted in a barely audible, yet steady, and desperate need for control. Nason was beaten and swindled out of valuable resources that support a sense of security (time, space, money). These terrors came in response to (or supported the affect of) her ironclad...